hanging in there

thought of removing the previous post.. but haha that's like cowardice.
over-reacted a little.. but sometimes it does get hard.
still no reason to give up!

after vincent's inspiring sermon, i'll continue trying to be more cheerful.. as testimony to the Lord.. success is nowhere imminent and in fact relapsing now.. but maybe while grouchiness can't be cured, it can be managed. rx: love, care and prayers.

eating way too much chocolate for my own good.. but seriously our chocolate cake and coconut sorbet is really really scrumptious.. mm..

as you can see, haven't lost a gram.


it only occurred to me today, how much i've changed in the past 4 years.
perhaps i did live out what was to be a self-fufilling prophecy.. never being there at all. and therefore never missed.
but all it took was that second, that one single second..

and i understand
you've come to shake my hand
i apologise
if it makes you feel bad
seeing me so tense
no self-confidence
but you see,
the winner takes it all...

the loser has to fall.