love is..

again. started falling asleep.. cos couldn't sleep again last night.. but again i can't sleep now. for the same reason. and last night was my only free night. tomorrow's work again, and night call and...

can't tell anyone why. but well, it is the one thing i pray about almost every day, and even though it's not resolved, at least it's better, cos i noe God is the only one who understands and is helping me.

tried running again today. used to love running.. feels like running away from problems.. in a world of my own. but now it's not just me, time spent running is when it's just Jesus and me now and that is so much more comforting..

ya as u might have guess all this happened cos i fell ill and forced to rest again.. must pack my week next week.. so it'll stop..

loving someone and not loving someone.. not sure which is harder to do.

argh. ok this is becoming a depressing blog. alright, was happy when the baby i helped deliver went home and the father thanked me, not that i did much.

hm, wat's the dsm4 criteria for diagnosing compulsive eating disorder? walnut cookies are strangely tasty these days.

that lady's my fren from newton kindergarten. haha.. we were talking about how dogs are better than men, cos they are always there when you need them, and they'll never leave. lovely meeting up with someone who doesn't care abt ur past, present or future.. and has been a real fren for 18years = )