woke up this morning.. not to the alarm clock, but on smelling the haze. serious! it makes eczema worse (where is a support grp when u need one.. haha..), allergic rhinitis cracking up again. bleh.

made a new fren. who asked me how's school and if i had plenty of tutorials. haha.. if only u knew, my school equates to poking veins, giving oxygen and inserting tubes.

enjoying anaesthesia surprisingly.. it's fun! to be isofluraned cos hands are too small to hold mask.. and falling asleep during lecture later (5 pple in the class.. so obvious) and woohoo.. managed to intubate on friday! immense sense of satisfaction cos without which the patient can't breathe effectively.. and of course the bagging and masking.. without which the patient can't live.. i mean, it just feels so important.. doing something many times a day which is life-saving. exciting also..always thought it was the boring side of the great divide, unlike the ever-busy surgeons.. but actually u have to be on ur toes and ensure the vitals are stable.. cos a single slip-up can lead to death..

which is why i kind of worry.. about choosing the path to dermatology. there are so many jokes abt it not being real medicine. and i worry too that it won't be as satisfying.. but then i worry too much =) irony isn't it.. that they only accept the top few.

initially, never quite understood the slant that sw's blog took, but think i noe why now.. cos there's just so much to write about, so much u want to share with the world.. and as the song says, dance about..

currently drowning in books.. better read as much as possible before obstetrics and gynaecology (O*shudder* & G *gasp*) starts. but thanks to a fresh start sw lent, read a chapter about Jesus always being with us. guess it is true. always prided myself on one point.. for over twenty years, never ever felt lonely.. always convinced it was a state of mind. until some months ago.. i felt.. very much alone. but this is more than luck, more than grace, more than love, guess what i meant in the prevoius post was, the Holy Spirit found me and now Jesus lives in me, and i no longer feel lonely anymore. He is taking my hand and it is a secure place to be.

while laying my head to rest just now, thought about how Jesus is a pillow to us too.. when we're tired, after turning to Him we feel rejuvenated and recharged (as karen said too!)

and lastly a continuation of the previous post when Jesus said in John 9:5 " I am the light of the world."

tried salsa on monday! cool.. but i still prefer ballet.
tried the brownie at abof today.. really really lip-smacking delicious. chocolatey but without the pharyngeal mucosal edema. only $4 some more..