not very stable

think i'm still in shock... at whatever happened in the past few hours.



the worse part is i'm shocked at myself.



and i fear.. i betray myself the most.



so before i forget.. this is not an easy decision.. but i think.. if tonight is anything to go by.. i just need a break.

a long break from the outside world.

just give me some time. to get everything right. before i too, break apart. it is, more so, to protect everyone else from that. sorry to the person who witnessed it just now.

i just need.. some time alone with God. swallowing several bitter pills at one go is not an easy act. among them will be omeprazole 40mg bd.

for those who know me well and are shaking your heads.. thinking.. typical... yes you're quite right.

for those who don't.. well someday you will.

so forgive me, disappearing act starts again.. for one simple reason.. my mum once said, " don't forget, you have to do everything within your means to make sure you're not distracted at work.. because you have lives in your hands, every day."

will this become a photolog? maybe.

don't worry.. life will still be the same, i'll still be doing calls ( heard some sighs of relief there) and you can still look for me if you need me. but otherwise.. it'll be, as she would say, extended quiet time.

very quiet, i hope.

good bye world..

You are stronger
You are stronger
Sin is broken
You have saved me..