abnormal gait

Somehow I wanted to remain largely silent throughout this episode to teach myself to complain less..

And partially because I lost my voice somewhere along the way..

But in the end I ended up learning so much more.

It all started when somewhere during a HO2 call dashing through the famous corridor when I suddenly thought, what would happen if I can’t walk anymore?

BIG mistake.

Everyone laughed, at how, when and where I finally found my face on floor.

But I suppose one must be brought to the lowest point.. before we realize what really really really matters in this life.. the essentials..

There were some moments when I really felt as if I had only God.. only One to rely on. Especially at 4am in the morning with twenty admissions.. and just a lot of pain.

But really thank you to everyone who helped.. I shan’t hold back here for they deserve the credit.. especially to qianyi, meifen, calvin, kenny, janine, ruth, dennis, asri, the duke students and to all those who were concerned. I think I had to finally face reality.. there were only certain people who truly cared.. who truly sincerely helped, out of nothing.. when they obviously had nothing to gain from me.. someone who was essentially useless at that point. And of course I had begun to take my friends in hospital for granted.. but as she said, God provided a way out.

And I too, learnt, that smiles do not equate to compassion. Sad, but true.

Not because of my injury.. but I’ve learnt that it’s ok not to meet others’ expectations sometimes. And to the friend who really scolded me.. haha, thank you = )

Think I’ve learnt to treasure life a lot more.. not really those of others = P but more of my own.. and I’ve learnt that every step I take is precious.. perhaps I had to fall because I was walking in the wrong direction.. in the sense that I had to choose to be happy with one good leg. but you can be sure.. that I will be running soon. Just don’t call me fat for now.

I guess as much as I hate to admit it.. I had forgotten how to walk alone.. and had to learn that all over again.. but after dragging out all my independence, I do feel a lot better after all..

This is the year that my faith is really tested.. not in the sense of do u believe in Me.. but do u believe that God can do the things you think you can’t.. do u believe He overcomes the circumstances that seem daunting? True faith is not by sight or by hearing.. and I’m still learning..

But in spite of everything that has happened.. although I literally stayed past 10pm every night for weeks (with qianyi of course).. I have to admit.. that ironically, although most people say the opposite.. this year.. is really one of the best years of my life.. God has just been so good and I really felt it..

And I can’t quite remember the time that I last felt so… happy = )

No more painkillers (unless there’s backache).. just some anti-tussives.


You took the fall
And thought of me
Above all

“Arise..” was what You said.